When I had my bedazzled purple cast cut off, the doctor who put me into the cam boot said that I could technically walk on my foot. Dr. W- told me limited weight bearing for two weeks. I opted to stay with the original instructions. Thursday, was my first day out, crutch-free.
It is grand.
Grant you, I walk as if I am a victim of a displaced stick, but it's all good. I have to keep a tennis shoe on, though. The height of the cam boot vs. a flat foot is quite different. I have to walk on my toes if unshoed on the left.
My crutches are still in the truck if I need them. I'm looking forward to going to the grocery today. I hadn't gone before, as I didn't care to go in a motorized shopping scooter.
I go back on the 29th to see what progress I've made and if I'm shoe-ready. I dare not walk anywhere without my boot. I even sleep with it on. Better to be safe than sorry, even if when I take it off, it smells like little kid foot. Eeeeewwwwww!
Smiles in my days:
- Busy, busy. We had an open house Thursday evening where we were able to go to our child's class and get the full run-down of what they do with their day. It helped to explain a lot of things and clarification is always good. I could tell that the teacher was nervous, as she apologized the next day for things that she had missed. I told her how much I appreciated it. She needed an atagirl. You know, sometimes it's a lot easier to get in front of the little people that their parents. If you do something goofy in front of the kids, they'll laugh, you'll laugh and all is done. Parents take things way too seriously.
- Mike, the wonder neighbor, is back from his quick trip to Myrtle Beach. Some old guy ran a stop sign and hit him with his car, though. Mike rolled over the hood and landed on the other side. The man saw that he appeared unhurt and he WAVED AND DROVE AWAY. I told Mike that I'm sure that he'd rather it be him than his girlfriend, Ruth. Wow.
- We caught our last monarch yesterday. The tally sheets will be mailed on Monday. The butterflies will begin arriving in Mexico in about mid-November. We'll see if any of ours made it. Of course, we're really pulling for PMA 912. I mean, I busted my foot for that butterfly and all! I'll keep you guys up to date on whether any of our butterflies make it.
Have a wonderful weekend!
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Pumped Up Kicks: What is your interpretation?
"Why, no I don't."
He went on to tell me that it was about a kid who went to school and shot up his peers. Yikes.
Several of us at work have discussed it. My basic thought is that if you can take a fairly liberal minded bunch of artists and college students and offend them with a song, somethings got to be a little off.
I looked up some lyric interpretatons online.
What are your thoughts? Me? I have a love for alternative music. This one makes me shake my head, though.
Smiles in my day:
- Finally, K- has a very "wiggly tooth."
Have a great day!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Please stop texting while you are driving.
To the offenders,
I have seen two young women driving along, both hands holding their phone while steering with their forearms, texting. The speed is up and down. There is swerving involved. May I put this in perspective of how incredibly NOT OKAY this is?
I have a child. A precious and wonderful child that we adopted. We lost our daughter, Bailey in pregnancy. To lose one child was horrible. You aren't paying attention to the road. You are reading messages. You are answering idiotic things that you needn't be concerned about while you are driving. Please keep my child in mind as you are being irresponsible.
I have a husband. My husband drives about a half hour to work. We've been married nearly 15 years, together for almost 18. I'll do the math for you. Hubs and I have been together since I was 20. He and my daughter are my all and everything.
I have family. My Uncle Billy died when he was 34. He was driving up one side of a hill, when someone decided to pass a semi on the other side. The two met up somewhere around the top of the hill. Instead of swerving away from each other, they ended up swerving into each other. My uncle died 4 days later, after having a perforated colon and developing peritonitis. I was in high school and devastated. My uncle didn't die as a result of texting while driving, but the other driver did and equally stupid thing.
I have friends. I have friends who have lost siblings and children, parents and friends. I have a friend whose sister was murdered. I have another friend whose daughter drowned. I have a friend who had both parents die within 15 months of each other. They have experienced loss far more than anyone should.
When you text and drive, you aren't paying full attention to the road. When you aren't paying full attention to the road, you can't be fully aware of small things that can turn into big things if not recognized.
Let me be blunt. You are driving a very heavy thing down a road while playing with a screen and you could kill my people or someone else's family.
Put your phone down. Pay attention to driving. Deal with your messages when you stop.
Thank you,
Amy at Bailey's Leaf
I have seen two young women driving along, both hands holding their phone while steering with their forearms, texting. The speed is up and down. There is swerving involved. May I put this in perspective of how incredibly NOT OKAY this is?
I have a child. A precious and wonderful child that we adopted. We lost our daughter, Bailey in pregnancy. To lose one child was horrible. You aren't paying attention to the road. You are reading messages. You are answering idiotic things that you needn't be concerned about while you are driving. Please keep my child in mind as you are being irresponsible.
I have a husband. My husband drives about a half hour to work. We've been married nearly 15 years, together for almost 18. I'll do the math for you. Hubs and I have been together since I was 20. He and my daughter are my all and everything.
I have family. My Uncle Billy died when he was 34. He was driving up one side of a hill, when someone decided to pass a semi on the other side. The two met up somewhere around the top of the hill. Instead of swerving away from each other, they ended up swerving into each other. My uncle died 4 days later, after having a perforated colon and developing peritonitis. I was in high school and devastated. My uncle didn't die as a result of texting while driving, but the other driver did and equally stupid thing.
I have friends. I have friends who have lost siblings and children, parents and friends. I have a friend whose sister was murdered. I have another friend whose daughter drowned. I have a friend who had both parents die within 15 months of each other. They have experienced loss far more than anyone should.
When you text and drive, you aren't paying full attention to the road. When you aren't paying full attention to the road, you can't be fully aware of small things that can turn into big things if not recognized.
Let me be blunt. You are driving a very heavy thing down a road while playing with a screen and you could kill my people or someone else's family.
Put your phone down. Pay attention to driving. Deal with your messages when you stop.
Thank you,
Amy at Bailey's Leaf
Sunday, September 11, 2011
The Anniversary: We'll Never Forget.
I've just spent the better part of my evening watching specials on 9/11. I've watched multiple programs showing the second plane hitting the south tower, the collapse, the panic and how not only did the skyline of NYC change, but so did the skyline of our lives.
At the time, I was unemployed. I was still drawing unemployment, as the galleries that I had worked for closed in early summer. I had worked for them as far into the closing as I could, then I was out to find a job. I had found one, at the place that I currently work, but was due to start September 17, 2001.
I was home, going stir crazy and cleaning my home to the point of being able to eat off my floor. I flicked the news on, as I generally did when I ate breakfast, and I saw the NYC skyline with smoke. I heard Katie Couric's voice. At that point, it was assumed that the building was struck on accident. I had been talking to my mother-in-law on the phone.
Then the second plane came.
It was no accident.
Then the Pentagon.
Then Shanksville.
I watched news over the next week to the point where I was in panic attacks. I couldn't sleep without seeing planes falling from the sky. I had to turn the TV off altogether.
I remember when everything happened, the sky became silent. It seems like a dumb thing to say, as everyone knew that. Here, we are three blocks from a small airport, and depending upon the weather, in the circling pattern of a more major airport.
If planes kept hitting buildings, what was next?
I recall going to Drug Mart up the street to fill up bottles of water. It seemed like a dumb thing to do, but someone somewhere (the news or by instruction from someone parental) told me to go stock up on water. Our water supply would certainly be compromised.
When I turned the TV back on, there were erector set piles of buildings with trapped people. There were messages left behind for their families. There were people on planes talking to family as their plane barreled into the south tower.
I felt sorry for us. I knew that there were people who lost friends and family. I knew that there were emergency service personnel that went in to do what they signed up to do and never came out. I knew that there were people -- a lot of them -- that helped each other get out of the towers. These people, as the whole nation, but these people more so would be permanently damaged. They saw things and experienced situations that no one could even guess. Though they were able to triumph over a building that would soon be a grave for many, images are permanently seared into their brains. What they went through during their exit breaks my heart.
There was such a loss of innocence on that day. No longer would we allow planes to simply fly overhead. If a plane made a weird noise or was flying lower than what I suspect would be cruising altitude, we instantly became suspect.
I felt sorry for the children, born and unborn, that miss the opportunity to know these great people.
I feel bad that we are no longer able to live a life with trust for everyone. To travel by air used to be a quick way to go. Because there were people who decided to use air craft as missiles, we must tack at least an hour and a half to our airport wait time. I don't mention this to solicit a "feel sorry for us" response. I simply state this because this is another confirmation that we've lost innocence. Someone can't be absent minded and forget anything behind in an airport. To do so will bring bomb dogs out and federal charges. We now must remove our shoes, because if 9/11 wasn't scary enough, someone decided that they were going to try to take a plane down with explosives in his shoes.
My grandmother had been visiting my sister and was stranded at her house, about 3 hours away from Shanksville. Cousins who had just married the week previous were on their honeymoon and were stranded out somewhere near Grand Cayman. Neither one could get back home.
I remember driving down Mayfield Road near Cleveland, and there were firefighters standing in the middle of the road with boots. They were going car to car collecting donations for the victims of 9/11.
Previous to 9/11, I felt safe. Hubs and I were planning a family, but that day everything for us stopped. Why would we want to add children to a world that we didn't even feel safe to live in? Here I was beginning a new job and we needed to purchase a car for me to get there. We had shared a car for a year and a half, but since I lost my job that was just down the road from where Hubs worked, the option of driving to work together was no longer there. Did we feel safe enough to spend that money?
Fast forward to today. When we visited NYC this past fall, we were returning from Battery Park where we had gotten off of the Statue of Liberty ferry. Our cab, no surprise, was flying down the road on the way back to our hotel so that we could change and go to Times Square to see Mary Poppins. Suddenly, my sister-in-law asked the cab driver, "Is that Ground Zero?"
"Yes."
There was chain link fence up and heavy equipment. Never in a million years would I have picked that place out to be Ground Zero. It looked like a construction site and not like a place where thousands of people lost their life. Maybe it was because there was nothing that marked the importance of the site to people who didn't know.
I felt so dumb not to know.
We were speeding by, but I was determined to take something of the site with me. I wanted to have something for my daughter. When she started asking questions, I could show her something of our trip to help fill in the gaps.
I'm so sorry that I have to explain terrorism to her.
I'm so sorry that I have to explain the loss of life to her.
I'm so sorry that I have to tell her how many people raced into the building to save people, didn't come out.
I'm so sorry that I have to tell her that Aunt Kristin and Uncle Tom lost a friend that day.
I'm so sorry that I have to tell her that we had a war with people over this, the big bad guy who was a head of the bad people who did this is now gone, but more bad people are still out there. Bad people who then killed more people in war.
We'll never forget. We shouldn't. We can't. Not one shred of it or any of the lives that were taken or affected.
At the time, I was unemployed. I was still drawing unemployment, as the galleries that I had worked for closed in early summer. I had worked for them as far into the closing as I could, then I was out to find a job. I had found one, at the place that I currently work, but was due to start September 17, 2001.
I was home, going stir crazy and cleaning my home to the point of being able to eat off my floor. I flicked the news on, as I generally did when I ate breakfast, and I saw the NYC skyline with smoke. I heard Katie Couric's voice. At that point, it was assumed that the building was struck on accident. I had been talking to my mother-in-law on the phone.
Then the second plane came.
It was no accident.
Then the Pentagon.
Then Shanksville.
I watched news over the next week to the point where I was in panic attacks. I couldn't sleep without seeing planes falling from the sky. I had to turn the TV off altogether.
I remember when everything happened, the sky became silent. It seems like a dumb thing to say, as everyone knew that. Here, we are three blocks from a small airport, and depending upon the weather, in the circling pattern of a more major airport.
If planes kept hitting buildings, what was next?
I recall going to Drug Mart up the street to fill up bottles of water. It seemed like a dumb thing to do, but someone somewhere (the news or by instruction from someone parental) told me to go stock up on water. Our water supply would certainly be compromised.
When I turned the TV back on, there were erector set piles of buildings with trapped people. There were messages left behind for their families. There were people on planes talking to family as their plane barreled into the south tower.
I felt sorry for us. I knew that there were people who lost friends and family. I knew that there were emergency service personnel that went in to do what they signed up to do and never came out. I knew that there were people -- a lot of them -- that helped each other get out of the towers. These people, as the whole nation, but these people more so would be permanently damaged. They saw things and experienced situations that no one could even guess. Though they were able to triumph over a building that would soon be a grave for many, images are permanently seared into their brains. What they went through during their exit breaks my heart.
There was such a loss of innocence on that day. No longer would we allow planes to simply fly overhead. If a plane made a weird noise or was flying lower than what I suspect would be cruising altitude, we instantly became suspect.
I felt sorry for the children, born and unborn, that miss the opportunity to know these great people.
I feel bad that we are no longer able to live a life with trust for everyone. To travel by air used to be a quick way to go. Because there were people who decided to use air craft as missiles, we must tack at least an hour and a half to our airport wait time. I don't mention this to solicit a "feel sorry for us" response. I simply state this because this is another confirmation that we've lost innocence. Someone can't be absent minded and forget anything behind in an airport. To do so will bring bomb dogs out and federal charges. We now must remove our shoes, because if 9/11 wasn't scary enough, someone decided that they were going to try to take a plane down with explosives in his shoes.
My grandmother had been visiting my sister and was stranded at her house, about 3 hours away from Shanksville. Cousins who had just married the week previous were on their honeymoon and were stranded out somewhere near Grand Cayman. Neither one could get back home.
I remember driving down Mayfield Road near Cleveland, and there were firefighters standing in the middle of the road with boots. They were going car to car collecting donations for the victims of 9/11.
Previous to 9/11, I felt safe. Hubs and I were planning a family, but that day everything for us stopped. Why would we want to add children to a world that we didn't even feel safe to live in? Here I was beginning a new job and we needed to purchase a car for me to get there. We had shared a car for a year and a half, but since I lost my job that was just down the road from where Hubs worked, the option of driving to work together was no longer there. Did we feel safe enough to spend that money?
Fast forward to today. When we visited NYC this past fall, we were returning from Battery Park where we had gotten off of the Statue of Liberty ferry. Our cab, no surprise, was flying down the road on the way back to our hotel so that we could change and go to Times Square to see Mary Poppins. Suddenly, my sister-in-law asked the cab driver, "Is that Ground Zero?"
"Yes."
There was chain link fence up and heavy equipment. Never in a million years would I have picked that place out to be Ground Zero. It looked like a construction site and not like a place where thousands of people lost their life. Maybe it was because there was nothing that marked the importance of the site to people who didn't know.
I felt so dumb not to know.
I'm so sorry that I have to explain terrorism to her.
I'm so sorry that I have to explain the loss of life to her.
I'm so sorry that I have to tell her how many people raced into the building to save people, didn't come out.
I'm so sorry that I have to tell her that Aunt Kristin and Uncle Tom lost a friend that day.
I'm so sorry that I have to tell her that we had a war with people over this, the big bad guy who was a head of the bad people who did this is now gone, but more bad people are still out there. Bad people who then killed more people in war.
We'll never forget. We shouldn't. We can't. Not one shred of it or any of the lives that were taken or affected.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Monarch Watch Tagging: The broken foot version.
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| You take a butterfly that you've caught while in a boot for a broken foot. |
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| Figure out whether it is a male or female. |
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| Get your sticker on. |
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| Get it set to fly away. Good luck PMA 928! We hope you make it to Mexico! |
- K- won first place in her category at the Garden Fair today! She was so excited!
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Life doesn't stop for the orthopedically challenged.
I've been busy making daily updates to the Just Between Friends PTA membership software, because I'm the Membership Chair for our PTA. I'm currently having a membership drive and staying on top of all of the information is a very good thing.
I was busy organizing the Garden Fair this week, because I'm the Garden Fair Chair. That's tomorrow. I've had to send forms out to all of the staff and students, get ribbons handled and as much filled out on the backs of all beforehand as possible, made and copied a certificate for participants, told the janitor how beautiful he is today so that he gives us less flak for needing tables for the plants tomorrow, arranged for transportation for a carless board member to come to GF judging, had Hubs pack our two shepherd's hooks into my truck so that the two girls who grew tomatoes in Topsy-turvies will be able to have their plants judged hanging in a pot and not sprawled all over the ground and got Mr. B- to smile.
That alone has been a work in progress. You see, Mr. B- has been stressing. Today is the absolute first day in probably 4 months that I've seen him smile in an unforced way. He was laughing.
The swing space has required all of our elementary students to be bussed regardless of distance to the school. The transportation has been such a nightmare that Mr. B- was telling us today that he has been going to bus stops to hang out with the kids in the morning to try to get the challenges handled. Add to that the 94 degrees that we've dealt with this week in a school that is not air conditioned and not well ventilated. The children and staff looked like they had walked through a shower when I was there last Friday. Day to day administrative gunk goes on and Mr. B- is on every single thing. He walks the halls, knows every single child by name and takes his principal job more to heart than anyone I've ever seen. It is good to see that his stress is starting to lift and that once again, he is able to be the smiling principal that we know and love. Whew.
I've been busy getting back and forth with the tutors in charge of 100 Book Challenge. I'm unable to set our update board for the kids (you have to stand on a bench) and the other tutor is doing it. It is making me twitch, because she isn't doing the classrooms in order, and she hung a class up in opposite alphabetical order. She's good with it, but I'm going to have to switch it. The principal isn't thrilled that she's putting the rooms up out of order and the lack of alphabetical order is going to tip him over the edge. I fear that I'll be resetting the board when my foot is better. I won't do it unless Mr. B- requests it.
Speaking of, I'll be meeting with Mr. B- over the coming weeks to plan our fall fundraiser. I'll be organizing a fundraiser for 505 students, 60 staff members, PTA board members and parents who would like to attend. To incorporate healthy living, Mr. B- decided that a walkathon would be good, and it was quite a success last year. I can't hike the walkathon route right now, but perhaps I'll be out of this boot come Sept 29. (My next doctor's appointment.) If not, I'll be booting along in the walkathon. To quote Mr. B-, "This boot is made for walkin'." I know not to overdo. I'm following the doctor's instructions and am only heel walking if needed. I haven't actually walked on my full foot yet. I don't plan on that until Saturday, Sept 17th, when the two week point has passed. Even then, I'll be very gentle.
The PTA peeps and I tackled the PTA room today. Kay and I had worked on it last Friday, but we finally got everything squared away today. Our room used to be the teacher's lounge when the school was the middle school. We had to wash the walls down from as high up as we could reach to the floor. There was coffee splattered everywhere. I understand that they were moving into a new building and that their dregs were being passed off to us as a swing space while our building is built, but have some pride, people! Geeze o' Pete was that place disgusting. Is that typical of teacher's lounges? Gross. I spent 15-20 minutes alone just cleaning the phone. I don't know that it had ever been cleaned and I think that people drew in the handset cradle with pen as they talked. Nastiness.
Tonight is the first night that I've prepared dinner in over a week. It has been catch as catch can in these parts. Between the break, the walking on a "raw" break for two days before casting, the casting, the uncasting, the booting and the starting back to work has really put a crink in my general weekly routine. Laundry can be washed, but I can't get it upstairs without help. K- has been good about bringing it up to me. I've folded but I'm behind on putting it away. That has nothing to do with the foot, but the general pace of life I'm living lately. I'm taking my one trip down (one trip only, Rachael) to drop some laundry into the wash. I'll take a one trip down tomorrow to flip things. I did about 4 round trips yesterday and felt a bit of the too-much-done burn on the foot. Nothing serious and a good propping and some Advil settled it. I'll give myself one round trip and if that doesn't do it, I won't.
It's funny. I didn't want to waste my one round trip on skittering down to the basement to retrieve my raincoat. It was pouring when K- was due to get off the bus, so I drove the lot and a half down to the corner and sat. Between the lack of raincoat, the umbrellas stowed in the under belly of the truck and running crutches over wet and partially crushed acorns, I decided that if anyone wanted to make fun of me, I was good with it. I don't think anyone blamed me! I do feel bad that the neighbor, with an umbrella big enough to cover the entire bus stop, was talking to me, I flicked on the windshield wipers and everytime they went back and forth, he was getting flipped in the face with water. Eeek! I apologized! All he could do was laugh.
So, there you go. Not stationary, though I should be a bit more. I sit on the floor a lot and crawl on my knees a bit. The PTA peeps finally stopped looking at me with a sideways stare. I think that they figured that if I needed to quit, I would.
And yes, if I need to, I promise that I will. I'm trying to be good and "listening to my body" as we've taught K-. I'm doing my one round trip and I'm out for the night.
'Night!
Smiles in my day:
- Dinner together at the table. Turkey kielbasa, mac & cheese and peas. Nothing high end or fancy, but it served the purpose.
- Going through the yard with K-, helping her to select her lovelies for the mixed vegetable basket that she'll be submitting tomorrow.
- Many things accomplished.
Have a great weekend!
I was busy organizing the Garden Fair this week, because I'm the Garden Fair Chair. That's tomorrow. I've had to send forms out to all of the staff and students, get ribbons handled and as much filled out on the backs of all beforehand as possible, made and copied a certificate for participants, told the janitor how beautiful he is today so that he gives us less flak for needing tables for the plants tomorrow, arranged for transportation for a carless board member to come to GF judging, had Hubs pack our two shepherd's hooks into my truck so that the two girls who grew tomatoes in Topsy-turvies will be able to have their plants judged hanging in a pot and not sprawled all over the ground and got Mr. B- to smile.
That alone has been a work in progress. You see, Mr. B- has been stressing. Today is the absolute first day in probably 4 months that I've seen him smile in an unforced way. He was laughing.
The swing space has required all of our elementary students to be bussed regardless of distance to the school. The transportation has been such a nightmare that Mr. B- was telling us today that he has been going to bus stops to hang out with the kids in the morning to try to get the challenges handled. Add to that the 94 degrees that we've dealt with this week in a school that is not air conditioned and not well ventilated. The children and staff looked like they had walked through a shower when I was there last Friday. Day to day administrative gunk goes on and Mr. B- is on every single thing. He walks the halls, knows every single child by name and takes his principal job more to heart than anyone I've ever seen. It is good to see that his stress is starting to lift and that once again, he is able to be the smiling principal that we know and love. Whew.
I've been busy getting back and forth with the tutors in charge of 100 Book Challenge. I'm unable to set our update board for the kids (you have to stand on a bench) and the other tutor is doing it. It is making me twitch, because she isn't doing the classrooms in order, and she hung a class up in opposite alphabetical order. She's good with it, but I'm going to have to switch it. The principal isn't thrilled that she's putting the rooms up out of order and the lack of alphabetical order is going to tip him over the edge. I fear that I'll be resetting the board when my foot is better. I won't do it unless Mr. B- requests it.
Speaking of, I'll be meeting with Mr. B- over the coming weeks to plan our fall fundraiser. I'll be organizing a fundraiser for 505 students, 60 staff members, PTA board members and parents who would like to attend. To incorporate healthy living, Mr. B- decided that a walkathon would be good, and it was quite a success last year. I can't hike the walkathon route right now, but perhaps I'll be out of this boot come Sept 29. (My next doctor's appointment.) If not, I'll be booting along in the walkathon. To quote Mr. B-, "This boot is made for walkin'." I know not to overdo. I'm following the doctor's instructions and am only heel walking if needed. I haven't actually walked on my full foot yet. I don't plan on that until Saturday, Sept 17th, when the two week point has passed. Even then, I'll be very gentle.
The PTA peeps and I tackled the PTA room today. Kay and I had worked on it last Friday, but we finally got everything squared away today. Our room used to be the teacher's lounge when the school was the middle school. We had to wash the walls down from as high up as we could reach to the floor. There was coffee splattered everywhere. I understand that they were moving into a new building and that their dregs were being passed off to us as a swing space while our building is built, but have some pride, people! Geeze o' Pete was that place disgusting. Is that typical of teacher's lounges? Gross. I spent 15-20 minutes alone just cleaning the phone. I don't know that it had ever been cleaned and I think that people drew in the handset cradle with pen as they talked. Nastiness.
Tonight is the first night that I've prepared dinner in over a week. It has been catch as catch can in these parts. Between the break, the walking on a "raw" break for two days before casting, the casting, the uncasting, the booting and the starting back to work has really put a crink in my general weekly routine. Laundry can be washed, but I can't get it upstairs without help. K- has been good about bringing it up to me. I've folded but I'm behind on putting it away. That has nothing to do with the foot, but the general pace of life I'm living lately. I'm taking my one trip down (one trip only, Rachael) to drop some laundry into the wash. I'll take a one trip down tomorrow to flip things. I did about 4 round trips yesterday and felt a bit of the too-much-done burn on the foot. Nothing serious and a good propping and some Advil settled it. I'll give myself one round trip and if that doesn't do it, I won't.
It's funny. I didn't want to waste my one round trip on skittering down to the basement to retrieve my raincoat. It was pouring when K- was due to get off the bus, so I drove the lot and a half down to the corner and sat. Between the lack of raincoat, the umbrellas stowed in the under belly of the truck and running crutches over wet and partially crushed acorns, I decided that if anyone wanted to make fun of me, I was good with it. I don't think anyone blamed me! I do feel bad that the neighbor, with an umbrella big enough to cover the entire bus stop, was talking to me, I flicked on the windshield wipers and everytime they went back and forth, he was getting flipped in the face with water. Eeek! I apologized! All he could do was laugh.
So, there you go. Not stationary, though I should be a bit more. I sit on the floor a lot and crawl on my knees a bit. The PTA peeps finally stopped looking at me with a sideways stare. I think that they figured that if I needed to quit, I would.
And yes, if I need to, I promise that I will. I'm trying to be good and "listening to my body" as we've taught K-. I'm doing my one round trip and I'm out for the night.
'Night!
Smiles in my day:
- Dinner together at the table. Turkey kielbasa, mac & cheese and peas. Nothing high end or fancy, but it served the purpose.
- Going through the yard with K-, helping her to select her lovelies for the mixed vegetable basket that she'll be submitting tomorrow.
- Many things accomplished.
Have a great weekend!
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Tales from the Trenches: Just remember how well I told you that I HAD been doing.
It was 2 AM Monday morning when I woke up hot, sweaty, uncomfortable and in an absolute panic attack. My ankle felt like someone was continually rubbing an emery board against it and my leg felt as if it was wrapped in a wet blood pressure cuff that was continually tightening. I envisioned a sore that was developing beneath the cast. No care or air could get to it. Most certainly, it would get gangrenous. My leg wasn't swelling, but it felt as if the cast was shrinking. I had fallen asleep watching the 9/11 88th Floor program, remembered hearing people screaming in my dreams and I woke up absolutely losing it.
I had to wake my husband up to come talk to me.
A pair of scissors weren't far from me. I had seriously considered trying to cut my cast off.
The more I tried to NOT think about my discomfort, the more I thought about it. The more I thought about it, the more it drove me absolutely mad. To say that all my marbles were nearly gone from my mental state is definitely not a lie. I had made the decision that the cast had to come off. Hubs said that they wouldn't take it off, but would probably give me drugs instead.
I got myself sufficiently worked up to think that I was going to have to go doctor shopping to get the purple rhinestoned cast cut off of my leg. My friend Kay offered her assistance. "We have tools!" The dremel tool in my studio was looking mighty fine. Rest assured, I was getting the cast cut off today no matter what.
I hobbled down to K-'s bus stop with her. As we waited for the bus to arrive, I phoned the doctor's office. Dr. W- was on a few days of vacation, but she asked me, "How about Dr. R-?" I told her that he would be great. He cared for Hubs when he had rotavirus and seemed like a truly understanding and caring soul.
Dr. R- walked in. "What can I do for you today?" I explained my rubbing discomfort, then I launched into my bigger complaint. "Dr., I suffer from pretty severe claustrophobia. Never did I ever think that would effect my having a cast on, but it has. I have had panic attacks and have been brought to tears. Is there anyway that you can take this cast off? Is there any other option for me other than the cast?"
"Did you break your ankle?"
"No."
"What did you break and do I have films?" (No, he wasn't being lazy. He had truly just walked in the room and I had never come to see him before. Obviously, he checked out the records after he figured out that I was a part of the practice and had received care there/at the attached hospital.)
I told him that the films were done just down the hall and that I broke my 5th metatarsal near the base.
"Oh! We can put you in a cam boot for a 5th metatarsal break. I'll take the cast off." Then he shared a story with us about his daughter. It seems as though she suffered from the rubbing problems that I was suffering from. He said that he changed her cast every 2-3 days because of her discomfort.
We changed rooms and he set to task. He cut and cut and cut. Then he asked, "Who put this cast on?"
"Dr. W-."
"Sean?"
"Yes. He really did do a very good job. It isn't his fault. I had no idea that I wouldn't be able to stand having a cast on."
He went on to say about how very thorough Dr. W- was, as he had bound my foot with layers and layers of casting material to be certain that it was kept immobilized and would heal well.
Changing to the cam boot has taken me from a 4 week recovery to a probable 6 week recovery, but I told him that my mental well-being was quite fine with that.
When we went to leave, Dr. R- said, "You know, I've never broken anything, but I don't think that I could do a cast, either."
I told him to make sure that he doesn't break anything, then he doesn't have to find out.
Rachael got many e-mails from me. Bless her dear soul. At one point, I told her that I thought that they were going to put me in a beautiful white coat that allowed me to give myself a psychiatric hug. She worked hard at not only listening to me losing it, but also praying that I didn't lose the rest of my rapidly fraying mental status. A friend offered the vodka in her freezer or the fine chocolate flavored wine that she had. It's been probably 9 years since I've had anything with any alcohol in it (family history of alcohol/substance abuse), but I did seriously consider her offer just as a calming effect. Hubs offered melatonin and had me sleep in bed with him, even though sleep wasn't something that he knew that I would actually be able to do. Kay offered to help me cut the cast off. Mom kept calling in a very serious tone to see if I had taken the dremel out yet.
My claustrophobia is no light matter. Hubs made me promise, as I was soaking in a hot tub while giving BOTH legs a shave, that I would never ever be put in any type of cast that I couldn't exit from on my own ever again.
Poor man. Poor child. They were both very supportive as I cried and panicked and apologized for my irrational behavior.
"Honey, you need to distract yourself. Don't you have PTA things that you could do?" I ended up working on PTA things for 2 hours in the AM and 4 hours in the PM. At least my attempt at distraction did accomplish things.
:deep breath:
Claustrophobia is a bad thing. A very bad thing. Who knew that a cast would cause me to flip a lid? My lid is now turned back upright and properly screwed back on.
Praise God!
Smiles in my day:
- I'm free!
I had to wake my husband up to come talk to me.
A pair of scissors weren't far from me. I had seriously considered trying to cut my cast off.
The more I tried to NOT think about my discomfort, the more I thought about it. The more I thought about it, the more it drove me absolutely mad. To say that all my marbles were nearly gone from my mental state is definitely not a lie. I had made the decision that the cast had to come off. Hubs said that they wouldn't take it off, but would probably give me drugs instead.
I got myself sufficiently worked up to think that I was going to have to go doctor shopping to get the purple rhinestoned cast cut off of my leg. My friend Kay offered her assistance. "We have tools!" The dremel tool in my studio was looking mighty fine. Rest assured, I was getting the cast cut off today no matter what.
I hobbled down to K-'s bus stop with her. As we waited for the bus to arrive, I phoned the doctor's office. Dr. W- was on a few days of vacation, but she asked me, "How about Dr. R-?" I told her that he would be great. He cared for Hubs when he had rotavirus and seemed like a truly understanding and caring soul.
Dr. R- walked in. "What can I do for you today?" I explained my rubbing discomfort, then I launched into my bigger complaint. "Dr., I suffer from pretty severe claustrophobia. Never did I ever think that would effect my having a cast on, but it has. I have had panic attacks and have been brought to tears. Is there anyway that you can take this cast off? Is there any other option for me other than the cast?"
"Did you break your ankle?"
"No."
"What did you break and do I have films?" (No, he wasn't being lazy. He had truly just walked in the room and I had never come to see him before. Obviously, he checked out the records after he figured out that I was a part of the practice and had received care there/at the attached hospital.)
I told him that the films were done just down the hall and that I broke my 5th metatarsal near the base.
"Oh! We can put you in a cam boot for a 5th metatarsal break. I'll take the cast off." Then he shared a story with us about his daughter. It seems as though she suffered from the rubbing problems that I was suffering from. He said that he changed her cast every 2-3 days because of her discomfort.
We changed rooms and he set to task. He cut and cut and cut. Then he asked, "Who put this cast on?"
"Dr. W-."
"Sean?"
"Yes. He really did do a very good job. It isn't his fault. I had no idea that I wouldn't be able to stand having a cast on."
He went on to say about how very thorough Dr. W- was, as he had bound my foot with layers and layers of casting material to be certain that it was kept immobilized and would heal well.
Changing to the cam boot has taken me from a 4 week recovery to a probable 6 week recovery, but I told him that my mental well-being was quite fine with that.
When we went to leave, Dr. R- said, "You know, I've never broken anything, but I don't think that I could do a cast, either."
I told him to make sure that he doesn't break anything, then he doesn't have to find out.
Rachael got many e-mails from me. Bless her dear soul. At one point, I told her that I thought that they were going to put me in a beautiful white coat that allowed me to give myself a psychiatric hug. She worked hard at not only listening to me losing it, but also praying that I didn't lose the rest of my rapidly fraying mental status. A friend offered the vodka in her freezer or the fine chocolate flavored wine that she had. It's been probably 9 years since I've had anything with any alcohol in it (family history of alcohol/substance abuse), but I did seriously consider her offer just as a calming effect. Hubs offered melatonin and had me sleep in bed with him, even though sleep wasn't something that he knew that I would actually be able to do. Kay offered to help me cut the cast off. Mom kept calling in a very serious tone to see if I had taken the dremel out yet.
My claustrophobia is no light matter. Hubs made me promise, as I was soaking in a hot tub while giving BOTH legs a shave, that I would never ever be put in any type of cast that I couldn't exit from on my own ever again.
Poor man. Poor child. They were both very supportive as I cried and panicked and apologized for my irrational behavior.
"Honey, you need to distract yourself. Don't you have PTA things that you could do?" I ended up working on PTA things for 2 hours in the AM and 4 hours in the PM. At least my attempt at distraction did accomplish things.
:deep breath:
Claustrophobia is a bad thing. A very bad thing. Who knew that a cast would cause me to flip a lid? My lid is now turned back upright and properly screwed back on.
Praise God!
Smiles in my day:
- I'm free!
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