Sunday, December 5, 2010

Fly, Grandma! Fly!

Last night at 11:25 PM, my sister and I walked my grandma to the Great Door and dropped her off.  I watched her go from labored breathing, to the infamous rattle to calmer, shorter breaths.  We were there as she walked into the arms of Jesus.

I am not sad.  I could not want grandma to exist in her state any longer. 

Human nature is to miss someone.  It is my Christianity that rejoices in her passing.  Grandma was in a state that she would never want to be in and we encouraged her to make the rest of her journey. 

I kept thinking, "What is Grandma waiting for?"  We had all given her permission to go.  It seems like a self-centered thing to say since death is a happening and not a permissive something.  It hit me.  The Pastor was there and we were talking.  He was saying about my grandmother's concern for my aunt.  As soon as I talked with grandma and promised her that we would take care of my aunt, within 10 minutes, she had left us. 

I have no tears.  Truly.  Why would I want to take her back from her Heavenly Home?  I rejoice that my grandmother, a woman of great faith, is now with her Lord and Savior.  I had tears for grandma for what she was going through, but now that she is gone, my tears are gone.

Grandma's suffering has ended.  What a great day!

Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers.


Rach said...

Beautiful. Her homegoing was perfect with you and your sister at her side. How blessed she is to be pain-free and with Jesus! :o)

My prayers for your family. For even though you are at peace with Grandma's passing, the missing does still hurt.

Hugs to you, my friend. Big hugs.

Rach said...

P.S. Your title had me thinking of "I'll Fly Away", one my favorite bluegrass/gospel songs. It was one Han and I would frequently sing together as we listened to our "O Brother, Where Art Thou?" soundtrack.

We had a beautiful slide show created for her celebration of life, and that was one of the songs we used. :o)

Ddeadred said...

Blessed be, my dear friend... xo Cj